Yes, my friends, worst fears have been realized! I have become a comic book collecting nerd again and I’ve never been happier! This shot was from a collector convention I recently attended
Scroll past today’s poem for today’s blog!
Who You Are
Do you think that you could come and crawl
Inside of me for just a moment
Look out through my own eyes
To see yourself for the very first time
Looking who you really are
With the eyes of another
It makes me think that you would understand
That so many things can change
Maybe it would inspire you
To lose a little weight
Remember more often to wash your hair
Wipe that little residue from the corner of your mouth
Insulting who I really am
Every chance you get
But I suppose that’s all too much to hope for
I can’t really ask you to change so much
But I was hoping if you did that you would see
Despite those things I love you all the same
March 25, 2016
Hello Dear Readers! This has been a great week for me. As some may know, I am now the editor of two online magazines dealing with mental health (SZ and Anchor) and it is incredibly rewarding not only to work in the field I have chosen as a career, but also to work in something that I strongly believe in, which is mental health support and awareness.
I wish I could give my readers some message of how I got to the position where I am, but I think a lot of what I want to say has been said before. Instrumental in me doing as well as I am is simply my housing arrangements. I have been living in supportive housing for some time and with some supervision and help managing my life I have been able to live relatively stress free and been able to pursue some of these goals such as writing.
One of the things my new boss at the magazine, an incredible man named Bill MacPhee who has overcome schizophrenia talks about is that when you have an illness you have to be persistent. I totally agree with this, it is so important to keep trying to succeed at whatever you want to do. Some people with mental illnesses have lowered abilities and hence lowered goals, but the rule still applies.
It was funny, but a huge turning point in my writing career came from the strangest source. I was at the house in the project I live in where we prepare our meals and there was this man named Bobby there. Bobby always seemed to be angry and people had told me he didn’t like living there. But one day I happened to find out that he had gone to journalism school and I asked him how he got magazines to run his writing. In a short and simple conversation, Bobby kindly explained how to contact a magazine editor with a query and get an assignment. Within the next few years I had been published all over North America and had made a fair bit of spending money thanks to simply not treating Bobby at face value.
There are many things to be learned by giving people respect and being interested in the things they do. I feel that just about everyone has something to teach us, something to give us, and of course, being social creatures, just about everyone has the potential to be a friend.
So anyhow, I think I was talking about persistence. Something I try to do is to write something each and every day. Not everyone is destined to be a writer, but especially in the case of people living with a mental illness, it can be so important to keep a journal, a record of your thoughts and whatever you want to write down. This is something for you, you never need to show it to anyone. My mom used to keep one and she started out by recording how her mood was for that day and then talked (to herself in writing) about the things that were working in her mental health journey and such. It can be very healing, and if you do ever decide to write something, the skills you will learn expressing yourself in your journal will carry through.
Living with a mental illness can be extremely difficult. There are times when I really feel my medication isn’t working. It is so important to have someone to talk to in these times. This is why another thing I like to stress for a person with a mental illness is that they have strong friendships. It might even be a good idea for that friend to be a fellow sufferer (or psychiatric ‘survivor’ as some say). It may not always be best to dump all of your difficulties on this person, but if you have a friend you can talk to on a regular basis, there is always that ability to get together and talk or watch a movie or sports game and distract yourself, get out of your ‘head’ for a little while. If you are able to do that with one or two close friends, you will find yourself dwelling less on the negatives.
One very powerful tool I have in my recovery toolkit is meditation. I have actually heard that people who use meditation on a regular basis can actually reclaim lost areas of their physical brains, that it is a healing and regenerating process. All I really do when I meditate is sit quietly and count my breathing from one to ten. I close my eyes and as I count to ten, I simply try to focus on an object that has some meaning to me (some may use a ‘buddha’ statue) and keep my mind clear. If thoughts about money or worries or anything start to come up, I just gently start my count over and try to focus. Sometimes I can get lost in this process and sit for more than half an hour, almost unaware of time. When I am done I end up feeling really good, it relieves stress, it clears your thoughts, there are many benefits.
Well, Dear Readers, I will leave off at that for now. As always, I am open to any questions or concerns, complaints or anything you like, simply send me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org and I will do my best to get back to you. Have a great day!