The Birds are Calling My Name
As I walk I am filled with pain
The birds are calling my name
All around me people stare
How can they look and all be aware?
I know I was sick like this before
and it opened wide the door
For delusional dreaming and pain
But the problem still remains
The birds are calling my name
I am scared and filled with shame
How did I deserve this hell
I wish I could crawl into a shell
The birds they call my name
And there is no one really to blame
My life will end in pain
As all creation calls out my name
Leif Gregersen
April 30, 2018
Well, it has been something of an unhappy weekend. I wrote down all the things that are giving me stress right now and tried to deal with them. But in reality, problems with money, problems with relationships, not feeling motivated and experiencing depression seem to all come down to simply being lonely. One of my best friends is far away in Greenland and I don’t get a lot of visitors that can cheer me up, so I think that is a critical part of it. For the record, I do take anti-depressants but they don’t seem to be keeping me going 100%. Plus I have been isolated for a few days. When I get back from a May trip, I am going to try a new injectable medication that is supposed to work better on my psychosis, and also increase my moods a bit. I am a bit torn right now because I am wondering if medication or situation is more important when speaking of depression. I suppose they come in combination with each other. I was doing some research and read that Cognitive Behavioural Therapy alone has been proven to work better than medication alone. I do believe that it is important to try and get both, to face up to your psychological difficulties and also to use medication to maintain a proper balance of the chemicals in your body that can keep you depressed. Well, this is going to be a short blog entry today. I hope you enjoyed the content dear readers. I think I am going to do some creative searching and see if I can line up a counselling session. I went to drop-in counselling before and it was really helpful. I hope some of you out there who are suffering can do the same.
LG